Running right and looking left,
Circling around and doubling back,
There has to be a way out,
Can't anyone hear my screams, my shouts?
I'm looking all around and I don't know where I am.
There's shadows creeping up; I think I know where I am.
I need your help to get me out,
But I'm scared to think what you might find.
Could someone please get me out of my mind?
I'm drowning in its endless waves,
Thoughts run over me in endless trains.
I need to find the line between the harsh reality and endless dreams.
I'm locked inside; I can't see the light or maybe I am simply blind.
I need someone to please get me out of my mind.
There are
There's a voice inside my head,
Watching my every move,
Reading my every thought,
And calling all the shots.
It tells me what to say,
And I try not to listen.
It tells me to stay away,
And I know I cannot listen.
For I cannot stay away when my heart longs for you,
No I cannot stay away, no matter what the voice tries to do...
It whispers things to me,
Making me feel worthless.
It yells things at me,
Making me feel heartless.
But I cannot stay away when my heart longs for you,
No I cannot stay away, no matter what the voices try to do...
Their whispers haunt my every thought,
Forcing me to keep them locked,
Deep within myself
Why is it that I have to care?
It ends with me getting a scare.
I try, and try, to make it not matter,
But it seems the fear lasts forever.
Because when I care I become raw,
And undergo an inner thaw.
I become attached to the warmth,
But act as if its unimportant,
For fear it will leave and I'll be lost,
Stuck to adapt to my defensive frost.
So I hide it away and pretend its not there,
I say "I don't really care",
Hoping in some twisted way,
That by pushing you away,
You just might actually stay.
It was the roar of the crowd,
And their smiling faces.
It was the blinding spotlights,
And the adrenaline that kicked in.
The smell of roses and showers of bouquets.
It was the way I felt,
And no one could take that away.
Because something once tarnished, Became golden an pure,
Even if for the moment the song endured.
It was the feeling in my heart
That tells me it is fate.
The stage is my home,
And with it I shall stay.
Because when I danced I felt flawless and free,
And no one could ever take that from me.
Swimming through this sea of darkness,
Thoughts rushing through my mind.
Why did you have to do this?
After all those times you've lied.
I've tried so hard to forget this,
And push it all aside,
Though nothings worked completely,
And a part of me has died.
After all these years,
You'd think that I have learned,
Be careful who you trust,
Or you might just end up burned.
My body shakes with tremors,
And my mind begins to close,
The paralysis soon takes over,
And the memories begin to show.
Playing over and over,
Imagining what ifs,
All sanity removed,
it's like running off a cliff.
Frightened into shock,
By this paralyzing fear,
It makes my heart shut down,
And my eyes start to tear.
I curl into a ball,
Deep within my mind,
And close off completely,
Frozen and numb inside.
Peace is what I'm asking for,
But it is hard to find,
When these stupid irrational fears,
Are playing on my mind.
Piles of rubble fill my mind,
My walls destroyed, one at a time.
I hardly noticed you tearing them down,
But here they are, littered upon the ground.
Without my defenses I feel so exposed,
It's something I'm not used to,
Yet it doesn't feel so cold,
Exposed to the biting frosty wind,
That the world throws at us again and again.
I'm scared of your power over me,
Yet somehow, I can't retreat,
The warmth and comfort you give off,
Is like a flame to a moth.
This vulnerability worries me,
And somehow I can't believe,
I'm throwing all my rules aside,
To open my heart and give this a try,
And strangely I regret nothing.
This feeli
When the lights are out,
And the night is cold,
I can't help but imagine,
It's your hand I hold.
Through the storm,
Blowing in my mind,
My center focus,
Is your blue eyes.
I torment myself,
With an answer-less question.
On my darkest of days,
It is to your voice I listen.
It keeps me strong,
It keeps me stable.
Somehow you have proved,
That I am able,
To smile and Laugh,
As love warms my heart.
Wishing us together,
Right from the start.
But as your image slowly fades,
Alone in the dark, brokenhearted I lay.
Often reality is too cruel,
To give me a chance to be with you.
More questions haunt my weary mind,
Eating up al
Falling like the autumn leaves,
Gracefully to the ground.
My nervous chest pounds and heaves,
And my cheeks flush red.
You were the breeze that picked me up,
And threw me through the air,
Sending me spiraling and spinning around,
Although you never said you'd play fair.
Soaring through this uplifting high,
Changing hues at your smile,
Dizzying spins throw me around.
My composure's now abandoned me,
It's been gone for awhile.
My crimson heart floats through the sky,
Propelled by the autumn breeze,
Plunging through the crisp, clear sky,
Not making a single sound
One question haunts my weary mind.
"Will you catch me before I hi